I’m ready to be a free bird again. I’ve kept myself so closed off for so long that I’ve lost part of who I am. I’ve stopped myself from living life to it’s fullest potential. I want to get back to being me. No more of this anti social crap….
I have been having a really good few days back in school. I’ve made new friends and have been spending less and less time in my dorm, which I absolutely love. I hate being cooped up in here all the time….it’s a boring life to live lol
Cheer tryouts are this weekend, and people have been flooding our open gyms to get ready. Our mats were so crowded today. It feels good to not be new. I know what I’m doing now and I know how our program works. It’s a good feeling to be able to express how much I love Hawai’i cheer to the newbies and get them excited about the team. We had our banquet tonight too. I forgot how much I love this team. They truly are a part of my family. They all have taught me so much and I have grown up through them.
I’ve been wanting to be more social lately. I’m not really sure why. I guess I’m just sick of always being alone in my room. I’m a people person and I definitely like having something to do. So between a busy cheer schedule, work, and new friends….I have been a very happy camper.
Only 44 days til I’m home for the summer. It’s gonna come so fast and I can’t wait :)
Sorry I’m writing about so many of my feelings tonight, but for some reason, they are pouring out.
I’ve been missing someone lately. Not like I ever really stopped. I just pushed it to the back of my head because I know I shouldn’t miss this person at all. He has stabbed me in the back. He treated me horribly. And he wants nothing to do with me. But yet, I still miss his friendship. No, nothing but his friendship. If you’re reading this, I don’t miss him as any more. I guess, like I’ve said a million times, I miss having someone in my life who has my same personality, who matches me perfectly. I’ve never met someone like that until him, and I guess I never will again…..awesome.
Wow that made me feel a lot better, almost like I can push it back again a lot easier So goodbye feeling, see you in a few months.
Have you ever had an opportunity that you turned down because you thought it was the right thing to do and then realized you should have taken? I’m in this situation right now. I was shown an opportunity that seemed to have potential, and I considered the idea. But I thought I already had what was best for me and that I shouldn’t chase for better. And it’s been months since I turned it down. No regret or any second thoughts about it. But now, all of a sudden, it has creeped back up, forcing me to think about my decision. It’s too late to change my mind. The chance has come and gone. But still, it really makes me wonder. What could have happened if I took that opportunity? How different would my life be? I sit awake at night thinking about it and it’s starting to haunt me…..Do I wish that I would have taken it? I’m starting to think I do :/
I had the best spring break. I got to see all of the people I love. I got closer to people. I spent a ton of time with my mom, the person I miss more than anyone when I’m away. I got to shop without stupid sales tax. I had amazing food, starbucks and bubble tea. I got my own room, with my big bed. And I got to just relax and have fun. I don’t want to leave, but I know that I will be home very soon. Only six weeks until summer and I’m already counting down.
I’m still considering going home next year. I get mixed opinions from other people, which means I really need to decide on my own. It’s a really hard choice and I don’t think I’m ready to make it yet. I know my heart will tell me what I should do and I’m just waiting for that to happen.
I’m going to miss Oregon, but I get to go back to 3 packages, my team, and the beautiful weather. I definitely can’t complain. I am blessed :)
Dude, DSW is the most amazing store! We don’t have one in Hawai’i and I had coupons so I went today to use them.
I found these on the endless sale rack that they have. They were $70, but on sale for 30% off. There were also a pair of Coach sneakers for the same price, but I figured I would wear these more often.
I also got a pair of floral printed tights by Steve Madden. They had a whole wall of tights. It took longer for me to pick a pair out than it did to find the shoes lol I liked these ones the best though. So cute!!!!