I’m ready to be a free bird again. I’ve kept myself so closed off for so long that I’ve lost part of who I am. I’ve stopped myself from living life to it’s fullest potential. I want to get back to being me. No more of this anti social crap….
I have been having a really good few days back in school. I’ve made new friends and have been spending less and less time in my dorm, which I absolutely love. I hate being cooped up in here all the time….it’s a boring life to live lol
Cheer tryouts are this weekend, and people have been flooding our open gyms to get ready. Our mats were so crowded today. It feels good to not be new. I know what I’m doing now and I know how our program works. It’s a good feeling to be able to express how much I love Hawai’i cheer to the newbies and get them excited about the team. We had our banquet tonight too. I forgot how much I love this team. They truly are a part of my family. They all have taught me so much and I have grown up through them.
I’ve been wanting to be more social lately. I’m not really sure why. I guess I’m just sick of always being alone in my room. I’m a people person and I definitely like having something to do. So between a busy cheer schedule, work, and new friends….I have been a very happy camper.
Only 44 days til I’m home for the summer. It’s gonna come so fast and I can’t wait :)
Sorry I’m writing about so many of my feelings tonight, but for some reason, they are pouring out.
I’ve been missing someone lately. Not like I ever really stopped. I just pushed it to the back of my head because I know I shouldn’t miss this person at all. He has stabbed me in the back. He treated me horribly. And he wants nothing to do with me. But yet, I still miss his friendship. No, nothing but his friendship. If you’re reading this, I don’t miss him as any more. I guess, like I’ve said a million times, I miss having someone in my life who has my same personality, who matches me perfectly. I’ve never met someone like that until him, and I guess I never will again…..awesome.
Wow that made me feel a lot better, almost like I can push it back again a lot easier
So goodbye feeling, see you in a few months.