I swear the future is the scariest thing in life. I am constantly overwhelmed with the potential (both positive and negative). Conversations with people flood my head and I wish I could predict my life and how it will turn out. I know how I want my life to turn out and I hope that these next few years are just stepping stones to what is to come. I know I am supposed to be here in Hawaii for the next few years because I know how much of a blessing it is to be here. And I found out tonight that Alex is planning on going to Oregon State because it’s inexpensive and he has family connections that could get him a job faster and with higher pay. Which, if things work out, will be a great start to our life together. I just hope that he is the person I am meant to be with. With the distance that will be separating us for the next few years, I can only pray that we will work out. Ugh, I need a magic ball that shows my future…..
I seriously cannot wait! I was really excited to go home for winter break because it had been 5 months since I’d been home. This time, I’ve only been gone for 3 months and I think I am even more excited than I was then. I get to spend 8 days at home and I am so looking forward to being able to relax and see my family and friends. Time really needs to speed up.